1. I didn't wait until 37 weeks to deliver.
2. I didn't get to hold both my babies at the same time.
3. We were never all in the same room together.
4. I didn't bring you home alive.
5. I didn't hold you while you died.
This started as an online journal in early 2006. At the time, it was a carefree spot for silly diatribes and the occasional photo. Since then, I got pregnant with mono.amniotic mono.chorionic twins, learned one of our daughters had a heart defect, spent 11 weeks in a hospital room and 29 more days with Eva in the NICU and PICU before losing her. We have two children who are alive and thriving and one who didn't make it. For me, this has become that place in between.
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